Life Happens, Life Begins, Life is...

Life happens when you are busy making other plans. Life begins when you are 21, or 16, or 18, or even 40. Life happens when you appreciate little things in life. When did life begin?

Life begins when you open your eyes in the morning. Be it on your own or with someone you love the most. It continues as you drag your feet to the bathroom and through until you reach your workplace or your school.

It begins when you realize you have to do this everyday, doing something that you do not enjoy. However, it happens when you see the faces of your significant other, your children, or your parents. At that moment you realize that you are doing this not only for yourself but also for them. For the people you love the most, to put that beautiful smile on them. It happens when you smile at the thought of them and the thought of them drives you, on and on.

It begins when you come back home. To the arms of the people you love and arms of people who love you. You realize that they will always be there for you. They will accept you in any condition; your best and your worst and everything in between. They will support you to do what is right and they will guide you to the light. That is the moment when your life begins.

It happens when you are tired and fed up with all the routines, all the problems and obstacles that will never go away from your sight or your mind. It happens when you are annoyed with your schoolmate, dorm mate, or fellow workers. It happens when you are rejected and down. You realize that life will never be pretty with flowers and unicorns all the time. You realize that movies will not be real life, even the ones based on true stories and such.

That is when life begins and when life happens. Life is every time you open your eyes and it will never stop even when you close your eyes every night.

Life is present, life is now;

It is Okay

I'm writing this down not because I want to be inspirational or anything. In my 19 years of life, I've been in the same situation for lots and lots of time and I always feel uncomfortable about this.

As you probably know, I'm in a family with loads of males. I have female cousins from my dad's side but they all live so far away that I don't get to see them very often.

Being the only girl in the family and having 5 other male cousins and an older brother is very very amazing. I am very grateful and I wouldn't wish for anything else to happen. Anyway... This pretty much makes me a lot like them, like a guy.

I really don't want to explain myself to find justice but in a nutshell, I'm not that girly. Yes, sure, I know and like stuffs about make up and fashion, but it stops there. I don't really dress up or plan my outfit just to go to school. I don't really wear make up (I still wear it sometimes). I don't have a ladylike curve/figure. And, I wear glasses.

All these were never a problem until I move away from home. I did not expect people's view about girls is that twisted...

It was really annoying when people ask me why I wear glasses and lecture me about how uncomfortable it is to wear glasses. Told me to lose the glasses and wear contacts and whatever. Excuse me. It's not like I devote my life and try hard to wear glasses. I wear it because I have to, my eyesight is not healthy thus I wear glasses. And I'm still scared to wear contacts, but I will try hard because I really have to in a few months from now.

I have scars on my face from acne. It is annoying when people say why not cover it up with make up, why don't you want to wear make up, come here and I'll make your face up, and I will not let you get away with no make up to this event. I don't know why I don't want to cover my scars up with make up. I wear make up when I feel like it. And sometimes I just don't think I need to hide my scars. It's not like I spray blood from my face, anyway.

I have a wavy/curly/thick hair. And let me tell you, it is annoying when people told me to straightened my hair, "you look better with straight hair", "why don't you straightened your hair", "let me straightened your hair" and all the stuffs. No, you don't know how I looked like with straight hair. No, I  don't want you to straightened my hair and I do not want to do it myself. This is my hair, I like it natural, get over it.

I'm a medium size and you would not believe how annoyed I am when people start to compare figures, telling me that I'm so lucky I'm skinny, I have small this small that (while sometimes the person who said this are smaller than I am). Despite this, I eat a lot. And I don't appreciate when people starts telling me about how much fat/sugar/carbohydrate are in the food that I eat, keep asking "why do you eat that? It's so unhealthy" and then coming back to the first comment about body figure. I have been called anorexic for many times and you have no idea how much I wanted to throw a rack full of shoes.

And (probably) you don't know how much it hurts when you hear those comments from people you know, people you love, or even people whom you just met.

Enough of me rambling, the point is I do not see anything wrong with wearing glasses, having a wavy/curly hair or acne scars on my face. It was never a problem, why is it a problem now? Do you judge people from their size? From their outfit and make up? NO.

In the end, nobody is perfect. If anything, I am totally unfit in all the ways you could ever think of. I don't do sports anymore. The only thing I do now is walk or cycle to and fro campus. And IT IS OKAY to have imperfections because every single person in this world have at least one. IT IS OKAY to wear comfortable clothes or not to wear make up or glasses as long as you look presentable as a human being (not like wearing underwear outside and all that crap).

I don't like to be a standard for anything. As long as you are healthy, you feel good about yourself, you fulfil your needs, and you are not bothering other people, IT IS OKAY.

Day 3

Day 3 - Five songs you like

OH NOOOO!! It's pretty hard to choose just five songs. JUST. FIVE. 

So, I think I'll put the ones that I recently listen to for the past weeks or month to be fair :D here goes...

Sorrow - The National

Save Yourself - James Morrison

Ooh Child - The Five Stairsteps

Free Fallin' - John Mayer

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

Here you go, the five songs that I listen to the most for the past few weeks.. Listen to some of them and tell me if you like any or may none? Hahah. See yah!

Day 1

Day 1 - Seven things that crosses your mind a lot.

Why people do what people do
I like to find that out, what justify people's action, what causes reaction, why some things are okay to do for some people or in some culture and some things aren't.

University
I'm going to one next year, and to be honest I don't know whether I should be excited, happy or nervous and scared, or all at once.

My family
The last time we got together was 3-4 years ago when my uncle got married, and some members couldn't come for important reasons. I would love to get together with everyone sometime soon.

My friends
Some of my best friends are now all over the country and the world and I can't see them everyday. And I miss them so much. It's a good thing I guess that I handle it better now than I was 3 years ago.

Music
I would love to do more of this forever. But I know I'm not oh-so-wonderfully-amazing at this, so yeah..

Memories from school
Especially the ones that I went through at home. I learnt a lot from them, I miss them. Sometimes, I become really mean and wish that I could redo everything all over again because now what I love and cherish are just memories. It wasn't perfect but that made it beautiful. It was special and full of special people and I met the ones I want to be with forever in my life if I have the chance.

Things I should've said or done but I didn't

I just couldn't help it. I do this all the time.

Oh wow, I don't think I'm aware of these until I write it down for the world to see..

Reasons to Live (Pt. 1?)

1. Rainy season or just rain in general (especially if you live in tropical climate)
2. Sunshine!
3. Beautiful beaches, walking in the sand barefoot and feeling the sand and water..
4. Swimming pool or jacuzzi
5. Snow!
6. The color of autumn leaves
7. Being able to drink water when you're tired and very thirsty
8. Internet!! and all the magic in it :D
9. Parks
10. Reservoirs or any non-contaminated places

11. Music, music, music
12. New music from your favorite artist
13. Seeing your favorite band making new records after years of hiatus
14. Hearing/finding the right song at the right time
15. Being able to know the title of the song you heard once on the radio after years of effort in trying
16. Hearing the song that you want to hear in the radio without requesting to the radio dj
17. LIVE CONCERTS!!
18. Being able to meet people who love your favorite bands/artists as much as you do
19. Great TV series or movies
20. and its fandom!

21. Learning new things, no matter how simple it is
22. Making people smile, whatever you do
23. Having a quality time with yourself
24. Family!
25. Your best friends
26. Meeting new people
27. The smell of new books
28. Great books or a sequel of the book that you've waited for so long
29. Hugs, especially when you really need one
30. Sleep time or nap time

31. Being able to sing your heart out in the shower (or anywhere really)
32. Dancing around as silly as you can
33. Doing weird stuffs with your friends
34. FOOD!!!
35. MORE FOOD!!!
36. The warm fuzzy feeling when you drink hot tea/chocolate/coffee when it's cold
37. The brain freeze or cold and tingly feeling when you drink cold drinks when it's hot
38. Theme parks
39. Cartoons (and watching those that you've watched when you were a kid)
40. Laughing until you cry and smiles

(to be continued...)

Slogtember 30 - Last Slog

And here we are, the last of Slogtember!

I know it's already the middle of October and it's coming to an end (for October) and Slogtember is supposed to be project in September. But I'm currently at home now and I have no internet connection at home since the only usb modem doesn't work on my laptop, only on my laptop, magically. SO I couldn't finish this on time. And I'm really sorry about that. :(

Other than that, though, I hope if you're reading this you've been enjoying my randomness in September and if you read any of the post you can comment on it, or do whatever you want :) I'm enjoying this experience and I hope you do, too.

If you're wondering how in the world I can write a blogpost now if I said I have no internet connection.... I'm in a coffee shop, everyone's favorite. I drag my mom too since I can't go there alone. Just to finish this. Look at my determination guys! :P

So, see you in another blogpost! Enjoy life! :D

*last but not least my creepy face*

Slogtember 27 - Contradiction

How many times have you contradict yourself?

For me personally, in my 18 years 6 months of existence, the answer would be a lot, a lot of times. I might do it right now as I’m writing this. It’s not that I already have a fixed ideals and principles about life. My view is still changing constantly almost everyday of my life. One day I would say that I would not sleep to late at night but the other day I would say just live in the moment and screw that. How about you? Maybe, never?

Is it wrong to contradict yourself?

Well, I really don’t know. People do it, we all do it. If you say you have never ever contradict yourself in any matter in you life, I can say that you’re lying. I might be right as well about that. Just think about how many promises you have made to your parents? How many of them you did not break? Or maybe the promises you made to your ex(es). Nah, I won’t start on that.

Some people might say because everyone does it then it’s okay to do it. It’s a common practice, a public secret. What the hell is that anyway? Is it true when people do it almost every time then it becomes the right thing to do? No. Just because so many people kill each other nowadays doesn’t make the act of killing other human being a right thing to do. It still is wrong. But is this wrong? Coming back to my first sentence, I don’t know because I do it too sometimes.

Why do we do it?

We? Okay. If you think you have never contradict yourself or your own promises, principles or sayings, with all due respect, please go away and don’t read this.

Oh reasons, fun. We could go on forever listing all the reasons we can come up with. Probably, because we want to know what happen on the other side? Curiosity. We want to know what would happen. We want to answer all what ifs that come up every night before we go to sleep. Maybe it’s because we want to change the principles in the first place and change the way you live (despite being good or bad, that’s not my concern anyway). In the end, curiosity kills the cat. Well, you’re not a cat so nyan that. Sure…

Maybe it’s because you want to comfort yourself or maybe you want to comfort other people. You don’t want to hurt them so you lie to yourself. Or you don't want to hurt yourself so you lie to people. Who wins?

Maybe… Well there will be a lot of maybes that I can’t write one by one but I’m sure people have their own reasons to justify whatever it is they decide to do.

So?

Everything depends on you and whatever you decide. Whatever your ideal is. It’s your decision; it’s your life. It’s not wrong but no one has ever said it is right. I’m still figuring things out. Isn’t that the reason why we live?

Slogtember 26 - Thank You Mas Darto (spesial)

Teruntuk Mas Imam Darto,

Mulai dari kelas 5 SD saya bisa dibilang hampir setiap hari dengerin Mas Darto dan jatuh cinta sama suaranya. Dari zaman Safari Sore, Mas Darto sama Tante Sessa. Trus ada Mucho Macho, Mas Darto sama Mas Okki (yang jujur saya kangeeeenn banget dengerin kalian berdua siaran. Mungkin nggak ya siaran bareng lagi?). Lalu ada Mass Darto yang siaran cuma Mas Darto sendiri. Sampai sekarang ada The Dandees, yang ada Mas Darto, Mas Danang, dan Mas Fatur kadang-kadang.

Terima kasih banyak banget ya Mas Darto karena tetep ada di Prambors dari 8 tahun yang lalu. Kalo nggak ada Mas Darto, mungkin saya nggak bakal sesetia ini dengerin Prambors. Terima kasih banyak Mas Darto karena taste musik Mas Darto yang bener-bener yahud. Terima kasih banyak ya Mas Darto, walaupun saya nggak pernah ketemu dan nggak pernah kenal, Mas Darto selalu rajin bikin saya waras tiap hari, memberikan saya dosis ketawa yang sangat pas setiap harinya, keeping me sane after all these years, making me forget all my problems and my sadness. Terima kasih ya Mas Darto udah selalu lucu setiap sore selama 8 tahun saya dengerin Prambors. Semoga Mas Darto pahalanya berlimpah udah bikin banyak orang bahagia.

Dari saya masih kecil, SD-SMP di Indonesia sampai zaman SMA saya di Singapura, saya tetep dengerin Mas Darto tiap siaran. Dan siaran Mas Darto di Prambors adalah salah satu alasan saya kangen rumah dan juga penyembuh kekangenan saya kalo lagi kangen Indonesia. Saya masih inget banget dulu setiap Mas Darto siaran saya lagi belajar. Saya juga masih inget kalo SMS ke Mucho Macho terus dibacain saya pasti senyum-senyum sampai besokannya lagi. Saya juga masih inget waktu MASS Darto siaran, saya pernah ngetweet: “Suara Mas Darto udah jauh-jauh di Singapur masih kedengeran sexy banget ya” terus dibacain tapi pas buffering saya lagi bener-bener lemot jadi kelewatan. Saya ditelpon temen saya sampai jerit-jerit dirumah sesorean. Pas The Dandees juga tweet saya pernah dibales dan saya bener-bener seneng waktu itu. Saya juga dulu rajin baca tulisan Mas Darto di Provoke! dari kakak yang udah SMA waktu itu dan sekarang juga mulai baca tulisan Mas Darto di Freemagz.

Sekali lagi, terima kasih banyak ya Mas Darto. Semoga akan selalu sukses dan semakin sukses kedepannya. Semoga tetep lucu dan semakin lucu. Semoga semakin semakin yang lain lagi yang baik baik. Yang terpenting, semoga Mas Darto nggak pernah capek mengudara dan menghibur saya (plus jutaan orang lain di dunia) :D. Amin.

*sebenernya ini nggak cukup banyak tapi untuk sementara ini yang keluar :)*

Slogtember 25 - Thank You The Dandees and Mas Danang

Teruntuk The Dandees dan Mas Danang,

Terima kasih banyak untuk duo Mas Danang dan Mas Darto dalam The Dandees yang dengan semua joke kejayusannya, Hai Lai, Mass DarTop5 (sama Mas Fatur), dan Kocrot Kecret Show selalu menghibur saya dari hari pertama kalian on-air. Thank you so much for making me laugh non-stop for 4 hours every time I listen to you guys. Thank you so much for keeping me sane, curing my homesick for four hours, making me forget about all my sadness and pain and problems, bringing me happiness and joy. Thank you so much for everything that I can’t express with words. I might not be your biggest fan but I’m so grateful you guys do the show together.

Buat Mas Danang, terima kasih banyak ya udah cocok sama Mas Darto dan on-air berdua. Terima kasih banyak Mas Danang karena Mas Danang selalu ngebanyol juga tiap sore. Terima kasih karena Mas Danang bikin saya ketawa banget dengan jayusnya dan “bro bro” dan “kureng”nya. Terima kasih karena selera music mas Danang yang keren-keren jugaa. Walaupun saya nggak pernah ketemu dan kenal pribadi sama Mas Danang, tapi Mas Danang udah setia bikin saya ketawa dengan suara Mas Danang yang ganteng banget (Mas Darto juga ganteng banget loh suaranya hahaha).

Terima kasih karena Mas Danang udah baik banget sama saya dan nggak sombong. Saya masih inget waktu saya ngetweet: “Kenapa nggak The Dandees bilangnya ‘The Most Wanted Guys In The Whole World’ aja?” dan pas saya bilang saya dengerin dari Singapur, mas Danang langsung ngajak ngobrol tentang konser Foo Fighter. Saya nggak berenti senyum hari itu J. Saya juga masih inget waktu Mas Danang bales tweet saya waktu Mas di SIngapur nemenin pemenang kontes nonton konser Foo Fighter walaupun konsernya batal. Jujur, saya seneng banget waktu tau Mas Danang baik dan nggak sombong :D

Semoga Mas Danang juga semakin seru dan semakin sukses dalam apapun itu. Semoga Mas Danang juga makin lucu dan semakin yang lain-lain lagi yang baik baik tentunya. Dan semoga Mas Danang nggak pernah bosen mengudara sama Mas Darto menghibur kawula muda (dan jutaan orang lainnya) :D Amin.

(Terima kasih untuk Mas Dartonya ada disini, klik sini klik yaa)