Wednesday, February 25, 2015


Do you ever think of creating a new blog, start a new place, a fresh blank space?

Yes, many times. This blog sort of harness my memories for about 7 to 8 years. A lot of things that might not make sense to you, the readers, make a lot of sense to me. This blog was a compilation of my stories, vaguely personal, mostly about love and friendship. Many of the posts reminded me of a specific events, sometimes even a specific conversation.

This blog revolves around some of the important people in my life. As we grow up, we all know we change, so do other people. People move on. I did, my important person did, my friends did too. Sometimes, we move on without ending what was established. Sometimes, people need to move on completely. The table of plenty has turned into table of empty. And we learned to move away from that.

The time taken to find a new table is not the same for everyone of us. It might take longer for some people and that's okay. People are not accustomed to change and some people stay in our lives to teach us how to let go.

That's why I never go through with the plan of creating a new blog. Life has its highs and lows. It has many many pages to be turned and each one of them is always a fresh new one. The pages I turned in the past were the ones that lead me here, with my own victory marks. You have victory marks/battle scars to show the world that you went through a personal battle, whatever it is, and you won. You survived. You are ready for the next battle. I want to remember my fights and my highs, as well as my lows as a humble reminder.

Whatever they may be, you can go through your battles too. Don't give up and show your victory marks proudly;

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Jangan Cintai Aku Apa Adanya

Last Valentine's Day, I went to have dinner with a few good senior friends of mine. We talked nonsense for a good 4 hours and honestly, it was a great Valentine's Day because of them.

We talked about good Indonesian song and stumbled on one popular song by Tulus. A love song titled, Jangan Cintai Aku Apa Adanya (which loosely translates to 'don't love me for who I am'). One of my friend claimed that it is the most romantic song. To which I say, I disagree.

Here is the snippet of the lyrics:
Kau terima semua kurangku
Kau tak pernah marah bila ku salah
Engkau selalu memuji apapun hasil tanganku
Yang tidak jarang payah
Jangan cintai aku apa andanya
Tuntutlah sesuatu biar kita jalan kedepan

(Mediocre) Translation:
You accept all my flaws
You're never mad when I did wrong
You always praise everything that I do
Even if they are bad
Don't love me for who I am
Demand something from me so that we can move forward (in the relationship)

To an extent, I agree with the lyrics. You cannot just please everyone every time by telling your significant other that they are doing so well when in fact they are not. Especially when they ask for your opinion, you should give the most constructive opinion without being condescending. They might not agree with you, argument might spark, but that is a part of being in a relationship. So, yes, as a significant other you should support your significant other improve to become a better person.

However, there is another side to this argument, which is why I disagree with this song being the most romantic. Basically, the singer (let's assume it's about the singer) is willing to change themselves and grant whatever his significant other's wished just to make that person happy. That does not sound right to me.

For instance, your significant other doesn't like the way you dress, you changed it to their taste all the time. He/she doesn't like you in certain way and you will always change yourself to cater their 'needs'. Maybe they don't like your friends, who are always there from the beginning, but you don't socialise with them anymore to make your significant other happy and lose all your good friends. Wouldn't that mean, overtime, you are losing your own identity? Also, wouldn't that mean that when you break up and have another significant other, you will have a brand new identity, again?

Anyway, the song did not specify what 'moving forward' means. Moving forward can be perceived as something positive in a relationship when you do it the right way. But when the future doesn't go as planned and you have to break it off, that can also be classified as moving forward.

So, what do you think? Do you think it's always a good thing to accept your partner the way they are? Or you're the kind of person who don't mind change to make your significant other love you more?

Here's the song for y'all:

Friday, December 19, 2014

Some of The Things That I Learnt in 2014

I learnt that...
  • I'm a lazy ass mofo. I mean, I always know that I am but this year that really shines through like nothing else. 

  • Summer has more rain than winter.

  • Much to my dismay, I love finance more than accounting. I actually enjoy it (my grades might not reflect that fact in a very distinctive manor but hey) and even considered dropping one major to get another but I didn't go through with it. 

  • Sleeping late every night is not a good thing to do. Sadly, I realised this a little too late. I got sick twice this year which is ridiculous because the first year I was here I was healthy all year long.

  • I can cook decent and tasty meal from scratch. I mean, boiled pasta with instant sauce and sausage are good enough for me when I want it quick and easy. But knowing you can treat yourself to a delish pan grilled salmon is a good knowledge to have.

  • As much as I like being on my own in my room, I hate silence. I literally put Spotify all day everyday, all, the time. 

  • It is nicer to be the passenger than the driver. I took driving lessons in June/July and dang it, it was stressful. I nearly crash into a motorcycle. Lucky it did not happen.

  • I sometimes talk trash about my hometown/home-country; the corruptions, traffic, yadayada. But I love it so so much. Last winter was the first time I spent all my holiday at my first home. It was the best holiday I've had so far that I cried for the first time when I was at the airport. 

  • I'm horrible at catching up with friends (sorry about that) and that it is nice to see old friends that you haven't seen in forever. I went to my brother's university for his graduation and I met some of my junior high school best friends that I haven't seen in so long. It was nice. 

  • That you can't fool your heart. You can keep going and tell yourself to stop loving, or to an extreme of hating. Feelings do not become invalid just because you tell yourself that you should not feel them anymore. Some might think love is stupid, but love is love. And you should not deny your own feeling, that is other people's job. You don't have to do it to yourself. Doesn't matter if it was 2 years ago or 7 years ago, if it's still there, enjoy it. If it hurts, enjoy it like you did when it didn't hurt. Basically, just stop lying to yourself. 

Cheers to whatever happened to this freakishly quick year! :)

Monday, December 1, 2014

Peluk aku dikala lara
Kala dukamu menerpa.
Pergi dariku waktumu teduh
Waktu riamu menyentuh
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